The stars is my heart.
The moon is my soul.
The cloud is my mind.
Thus,
The SKY is my love.
(:
Friday, August 13, 2010,6:15 PM
Friday the 13th.
It's been ages since i've blogged. Spiderwebs and cobwebs everywhere. Stale.
We fought today. I know im the one who started it. I know i don't mind him sleeping back after i wake him up. But today, i felt upset all of a sudden. Shima told me that i look horrible on the way to school. Went to the toilet and just tie my hair. Haa.
We've been together for almost a year. Rocks here and there bound to appear every now and then. From what i heard that is. Yes, yes. It's my fault. Maybe it's because we never communicate like how we used to?
Maybe.
I remember last year's fasting month.
Me and him.
Would webcam with each other from night until sahur. After sahur we went to sleep. This had become a routine. He would always makes me blush for no reason. *smiles*
Currently, text messages are not so frequent as the past, webcams have been rare, phone calls not made.
I miss him.
The him that would make me blush.
The him that would always make me happy and brings me to laughter,
The him that would give me surprise hugs.
The him that would always pat and kiss my head as a loving gesture.
The him that would hold my hands to make me feel warm, safe and secure.
It's been a long time since i've blogger. It's been rotting since the last time that i post an entry. Haa.
Life has never been great.
Great friends.
Wonderful boyfriend. (:
I just can't help but being happy.
Though sometimes there are ups and downs, we managed to pull through. Fights and misunderstanding do occurs at times. But you will feel the relieved when those are gone.
Cherish your friends are love ones. Every moment you spend time with them is a blessing.
That is why, i cherish him very much. It is a blessing. Though time is not on my side for now as he has a job, moments i spent with him will be enjoyed to the fullest. (:
Hearing and seeing you say it individually means something.
But hearing and seeing you sayI love you at the same time means everything. It justs makes my heart and stomach flutter with butterflies.
With your cute smile and laughter, with that messy hair and droopy eyes.
With your hugs and kisses are warm and makes me tingly, with that hot-temper of your's and and your silly lame jokes.
It makes me understand you more and making me love you more as each day passes.
Some people may think or see that you're unperfect. But to me you are. Cause that is who you are and not acting like someone that you are not.
But im happy enough that you're with me and are able to put up with certain of my rough ways. And i respect you for that. Though you sometimes could be a bit childish at certain times. *grins*
Today is your first day of school. And i hope that you'll have fun there kay? (: Don't forget to study instead of playing games only uh. If not. Hahaha.
Can't wait to hang-up on me isit? Can't wait to have at least me to say a simple, 'bye.'?
I waited for him online for almost half an hour, till i fell asleep. Waiting for him to nudge me or something, or even text me. In the end, I get to know that he went out. It's not that i don't let him.
The thing is, he could even forgot about me.
Yes, he did say sorry. But who couldn't be angry, sad disappointed when you're being left hanging there. Being forgotten?
Eveything i did to make him laugh, make him smile doesn't seems to work. Im trying real hard to at least make him smile, laugh, or at least talk to me rather than being quiet.
But it seems that it does not affect him. Well, it affected me. Making me feel~, sad, like crying. It's stressful.
Texting all day with him, he sounds happy and his cheery self is there. But online and webcamming, he seems stressful. Did i do something wrong?
He just says that he is stress because of the journey that i would take to expo then back to East Coast Park. I say that i don't mind because i insist. That should take away his worry right?
But he is still moody. It's stressful you know to try to make a joke and in the end, *crick, crick*. Many ways that i've tried. Nothing, and he is still moody. And my eyes is beginning to tear up. To a point that i seriously didn't know what to do.
Im effing bored since i woke up. I didn't really have anything to do today. Just wake up and use my lappy all the way. Websites here, websites there. Sheesh. Just staring at my lappy like nobody business.
Well, my mum is in a good mood today. I think. She suddenly asked me to watch television with her at her room. Then i just accepted her offer and went to her room of course, since i should at least give her credit in wanting us to be closer. *smiles*
Well, while watching the malay news with her, saw ny sister's face on screen. *laughs* She is perfoming for the Suria's thing or whatever it is called.
And now, sayang just reached home. And we are quarelling about what i said. But playfully though. We are laughing through our webcams. *grins* plus *laughs*
Name: Zakiyyah
Exist since: 24november1991
Birthday wish: Gazing the stars at Sentosa
Loves: Stars and Winnie the Pooh
Hates: Flowers and Pink
Hope: To have a happy life. (:
Feelings: HAPPY
Currently: Loving SKY
